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Nov. 12th, 2010 @ 04:00 pm change in the air
Current Music: Psycliq - Setting Out [Results Not Typical]
This week has given me opportunity to shuffle a few things in my life that will have some major impacts over the next year or so. The two main things are tangentially related, in that they're about managing my time and commitments to different things.

First off, I've signed up for two simultaneous classes this coming spring, which should be enough to finish out my final semester in the master's degree program. It's been a long time working at this, and now I'm in a position to really put it to rest with one final push. I went back and forth on this for a long while, trying to figure out if I really did want to put myself through what will almost certainly be a huge amount of work, frustration, and stress. I don't want to just skate through things, I want to give it a real effort and commitment. But in the end, it's going to be a bit painful but only for a short while. And then I'll be done, with a degree in hand. That's something I look forward to very much.

The other item is my aikido training. Or, more specifically, the recent lack thereof. In the past year or so, I've slowly dwindled down to about once a month at the dojo, and my training has suffered as a result. Each class, it takes me a bunch of time to get back into the swing of things, both physically and mentally, and then by the time I can start what I'd consider "real" training, I'm already exhausted. It's just not a good place to be in, and my study of martial arts deserves more than that. So with that, I'm taking a break from shobu until at least after grad school, even though it kinda hurts to say that. As part of this, I need to figure out some kind of exercise regimen that I can actually stick to. Aikido *was* my major source of physical activity, so now that I've really not been doing it I'm really getting out of shape. That's something that I seek to fix.

In the end, it's a trade off, and a coming to terms with reality for me. I am not yet sure what this will mean for other aspects of my life, like family, work, and music. But like I always have, I'm sure I'll figure some way to get all of my priorities represented in there somehow.

All said, I really can't say why I'm making things harder for myself like that. But in many ways, I think this will be better in the long run.
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